How Long?

Christianity, Psalms

How long, Lord, will you continue to ignore me?
How long will you pay no attention to me?
How long must I worry,
and suffer in broad daylight?
How long will my enemy gloat over me?
 Look at me! Answer me, O Lord my God!
Revive me, or else I will die.
 Then my enemy will say, “I have defeated him.”
Then my foes will rejoice because I am shaken.
 But I trust in your faithfulness.
May I rejoice because of your deliverance.
 I will sing praises to the Lord
when he vindicates me. —Psalm 13

Our time here on earth is often difficult and filled with pain. There are times that it seems as though hope itself is lost, and we look to the heavens and wonder where God is and why He’s not doing anything. There are times when our sorrow, our frustration, our fear, our suffering, our anguish, and our sadness overwhelm us. These things close in upon us and begin to suffocate us. Often in these moments, our only response–the only thing we can do–is to cry out to the Lord before our voices are forever stifled. We cry out because it is the only thing left to do; we cry out because we are powerless.  We cry out because we are in desperate need of help. We cry out and plead for God to hear us and to take action because, without His intervention, all is truly lost.

We see such a moment in Psalm 13. As we read through this heart-wrenching lament, we see that the author, believed to be David,  is in a moment of crisis. He is in the depths of suffering; he is being hunted by those who wish to kill him.  David surrounded by enemies, and his closest friends have deserted him. He has been abandoned by man, and seemingly, by God as well.  In this situation, David can do nothing but cry out.

In his pain and fear, David cries out to God and asks where He is, and for how long will God forget him. The situation before David made it appear as though God was no longer watching over him, as though God had forgotten about his servant. David rightly understands that he can do nothing about this situation.  He knows that he is powerless and that his enemies will destroy him if God does not take action. And so, David cries out to God; he pleads for God to look at him–to see his sorrow, to see his suffering, to see his loss, to see the danger that surrounded him–and for God to do something. In his desperation, David does the only thing he can do; he cries out and says, “Look at me! Answer me, O Lord, my God. Do something, or I will die.”

Even in his sorrow, pain, and desperation, even while he is questioning if God has forgotten about him, David understood that God was his only hope. Though his enemies were boasting and rejoicing about his defeat, David knew that God was faithful and that God would deliver him one way or another.  Though things were bleak, God was still faithful.  Though the situation was desperate, God was still faithful. Though David was terrified and on the verge of death, God was still mighty to save, and He was still faithful. Though David was overcome, God would not be. As desperate as David seemed, in the depths of his heart, he knew that God had not forgotten him. He knew that God was faithful to keep His promises. David might suffer, but God would not forsake him or break His promises to him.

There is much pain and sorrow and anguish today. There is injustice and suffering in broad daylight. All around, there are people in desperation, asking where God is, asking how long He will continue to be silent to the sin, sorrow, and injustice that is rampant. Some might mock and say there is no God; they point to the abundance of evil around us and say that a good God would not allow such things to occur.  For the faithful, it seems as though the gloating forces of evil have surrounded them. For many, it seems as though all hope is lost. For many, it seems like God may have truly forgotten and forsaken them. For many, the only thing they can do is cry out in their pain and anguish and pray for God to hear them.

For you who are in this situation today, for those of you who are overcome with anger, grief, pain, sorrow, despair– cry out to God. Cry out to Him and know He hears you. Know that He has not forgotten you; He has not forsaken you. Cry out to Him and know He sees the situation before you. Cry out to Him and know He sees the oppression. Know He sees the injustice. Know He sees your sorrow and your pain. Know that He feels your hurt. Cry out to Him and know that you are not alone. Cry out to Him and know that many others are crying out alongside you.

 Though you are suffering today, know that He is faithful and that He will keep His promises. Long ago, He swore that He would have His vengeance upon the sin, oppression, and injustice of this world, and He will keep His word. He sent us His son to give us hope, and to declare war on the forces of evil and this world. He will keep His word. His day will come.

He is trampling out the vintage where the grapes of wrath are stored; He hath loosed the fateful lightning of His terrible swift sword. He has sounded forth the trumpet that shall never sound retreat; He is sifting out the hearts of men before His judgment seat.  

Do not lose hope. Do not give up. Remember that the Lord will keep His promises. His day will come, and on that beautiful day when the glory of the Lord finally comes–when He destroys evil once and for all–we will stand together, as brothers and sisters, and we will cry out to Him together “glory, glory, Hallelujah! Glory, glory, Hallelujah!”

Artwork: “Boy Singing,” Worship Art.

I Will Trust You.

Christianity, Psalms

“My heart is in anguish within me;

    the terrors of death have fallen upon me. 

Fear and trembling come upon me,

    and horror overwhelms me.

And I say, ‘Oh, that I had wings like a dove!

    I would fly away and be at rest;

yes, I would wander far away;

    I would lodge in the wilderness;

I would hurry to find a shelter

    from the raging wind and tempest.’

…But I will trust in you.”  Psalm 55:4-8, 23.

Psalm 55 represents one of David’s most heart-wrenching poems. Though there is no way to date when David penned this particular psalm, it was written in response to a terrible betrayal by someone close to him. The psalm reflects the emotions–grief, anger, pain– that David experienced as a result of this treacherous betrayal. There is no shortage of theories regarding the betrayal David is referring to in this psalm; some believe it was written during the time David was fleeing from Saul.  Others think it was written about the rebellion of David’s son, Absolam. There are even many who believe it was written about the horrific rape of David’s daughter, Tamar, by her half-brother, Amnon. Whatever the situation was, David was deeply impacted and found no solace apart from God.

Throughout the text of Psalm 55, David bounces from one end of the emotional spectrum to the other. He begins his prayer to God with an earnest petition for God to hear his pleas for help and deliverance. David goes on to ask for God to smite his enemies for their treachery and their sin. The fact that a friend committed this wrong–someone whom David trusted–is particularly difficult for him to reconcile, and it made the wounds of this betrayal all the more painful to bear.

The honesty with which David expresses himself makes this psalm all the more understandable and relatable. The pain that engulfed him, the anguish that overwhelmed him, caused him to experience one of the most human reactions to difficulty: the desire to run away. David longed to be able to remove himself from the sorrow and heartache of this betrayal. He wished that he could be a bird and fly far away to the isolation of the wilderness and forget all the grief he had experienced. He was amid a stormy trial longing for an escape, for a shelter where he could hide, for a safe place to which he could flee.

David, however, could not run away from this problem. Though he wanted to, and though it would have hurt less, he could not flee. He had to endure.

David comes to this realization at the end of Psalm 55. He remembers that God will not only repay the wicked for their injustice but that He will also sustain David through this trial. God is equally committed to preserving the righteous through their ordeals as He is to measuring out His judgment upon the wicked. The assurance of God’s control of the world–including the fates of both the wicked and the righteous–gave David hope. It also reminded him of a fundamental truth: that God’s sovereignty makes Him trustworthy. 

Regardless of the situation, God is still all-powerful and in control and, because of this, He can be trusted. He can be trusted to sustain us, He can be trusted to deliver us, He can be trusted never to abandon us. He alone is worthy of this trust. Friends, family, loved ones may hurt us, may break our trust, may–as in David’s case–betray us. But God never will. In those times, when we are overwhelmed to the point of wanting to run away, we must turn to Him. When we are looking for any way to flee our pain and heartache, we must remember that He can be trusted to sustain us and to see us through the trial. He will be there for us because He knows the pain of betrayal firsthand. God felt the wounds of betrayal in the Garden of Eden when humanity disobeyed Him and chose to pursue the knowledge of good and evil instead of pursuing a life with Him. God felt the pain of betrayal in the Promised Land when Israel scorned Him time and time again with their spiritual adultery with false gods. God felt the agony of betrayal again in another garden when Judas Iscariot approached Him with armed men and kissed Him on His incarnate cheek. Yes, God knows betrayal firsthand, and because of that, He can be trusted not to betray us.

There are situations in life that make us wish that we could run away. These situations are painful, often to the point of being more than we can bear. As in David’s case, these situations may be caused by people we trusted, which adds a deeper layer of hurt for us to wrestle with. There is One, however, that we can always trust; there is One who will never betray us, even though we are guilty of having betrayed Him. God is worthy of our trust, and while the world may turn its back on us, we can trust Him to sustain us and never forsake us.

Do not be overwhelmed by your circumstances. Do not grow weary and bitter because of your wounds. Trust in God, for He is in control. Trust in God, for He will see you through.

Artwork: “Colorful King David” Marc Chagall, 1956.